I was going to close the blog....
The other thing is, the last time I looked in my "sitemeter" I saw that certain people who have said some really disturbing things to and about me actually visit my blog almost every day. ... and sometimes more than once.
It is sickening to think someone is watching you who thinks you are a really bad person, and actually imagines all sorts of evil intentions FROM you towards others. Even more sickening is when you read their theories and gossip about you publicly on blogs where you participate. It happens, you forget about it after a while and then you read the person saying these bizarre things again and it all comes back. They yack and yack about their opinions about things that are none of their business. You could feel like they were looking for things to accuse you of. You might have a thought like "I posted on my blog today and commented on other blogs. I wonder if anything I said could be taken the wrong way and be interpreted to mean something bizarre. Will _____ read it and then spout off somewhere else about me..."
I was discouraged by all of this.
Then, when I woke up this morning, in my inbox was an email notification of a new comment on my blog. It was on an old post from my TULIP series. The last comment from someone other than me on this post has given me a renewed interest in staying afloat. :~)
Maybe ______ is disspointed that he wasn't able to discourage me permanently, but God sends affirmation when needed. My conscience is clear... regardless of what darts the Devil tries to throw at me.