The Bible Has it Right
Firstly, though, I have a rather simple post on how I see Genesis 3:16 relating to this place I am in right now. I have three children already. I need to say that with the first two children, I never felt some of this because it was all so new and was exactly what I desired.
If I hadn't said this already, having a fourth child at this time is not what I had planned. It really took me by surprise, and if I am honest, I cried about it. It was really not what I wanted to do. Obviously, I have been warming up to the idea. (I think this is why God gives us 9 months.) I know that God has His hand in it and that children are a gift from the Lord. Knowing all this doesn't stop the feeling of being a bit overwhelmed and perhaps having feelings of (even) dread at times. How am I going to handle it all?
I was talking to John the other day and I just want to share with you something I said to him. This is me at my worst. This is not pious. These words are the honest, un-retouched thoughts of a woman who has had a few children and is expecting a child at a time that she wasn't really geared up for it. Get it?
Warning: frank, not-so-virtuous thoughts ahead:
"Pregnancy is like an irony played on the mother. You find out you're pregnant; your mind is thrown into a tizzy over the implication of it all. Then time goes on ... and you feel physically sick, or tired, or both. There is no release from the fact that the big day of pain and the years of responsibilty is coming. There is no escaping it ... it will be here. You are on a countdown to the beginning. As the countdown progresses, you become more and more uncomfortable physically. You find yourself wanting the day ... that you have been dreading ... to come, because the process of getting to it is so miserable."
At this point, my husband quoted Genesis 3:16 to me.
To the woman He said, I will greatly multiply your grief and your suffering in pregnancy and the pangs of childbearing; with spasms of distress you will bring forth children. (Genesis 3:16)I thought, "Wow, that could not have been better put."
I must say emphatically that I do not constantly feel the negative way I described above. I am becoming more and more excited about little #4. I know I will fall in love with him/her and I will forget all the trouble of childbearing. John and I hadn't planned the third child, either, but what would we do without him? He is the joy of the family.
John also said this to me while we discussed Genesis 3:16:
"The woman's blessings come to her through sorrow."